A Wandering Heart

My soul wanders as I ponder

Lost in a maze of my own mind’s making

Worries, fears and insecurities

Cloud my vision – Anxiety

Attacks in a heartbeat

Quick as a glance yet cutting to the core

You say Your love’s enough but I always want more.

Why?

Why don’t I know where my home is?

Why is my mind in perpetual crisis?

Why’s the delight of worship so brief?

Why do’I so often succumb to the thief?

A naïve infant, I chase the menacing stranger

Open my arms to one who reeks of danger

Forget my first Love every chance I get

Then wallow in misery of deepest regret

                        Release Me!

My soul is in grief but I know You’ll redeem me.

I’m homesick for a place I’ve never been, receive me.

I ask myself constantly, What does it all mean?

            Lord Jesus you hear me, you feel my heart’s cry

            You know my heart’s aching, you see my desires

            Help me to love you like David and Mary,

            And teach me daily, my cross to carry.